08-29-2016, 12:41 PM
(08-29-2016, 12:30 PM)Surge Wrote: ITT Marx does all the "Marx" things that nobody liked but put up with anyways, blames us.Nobody was really ever clear about what I did that nobody liked, aside from my penchant to be too silly and soak up drama.
And I'm not blaming it on anyone but myself, I was the one who refused to fight, refused to remove myself when the situation turned sour, and I was the one who despite knowing my severe shortcomings of understanding the feelings and behaviors of others. I also did not expend extra effort to try and cognitively process those finer nuances of social interaction that has never come naturally for me like it does most. I knew that I had a problem, knew that I come off as blunt, but I was too weak and/or lazy to fight it. It would have been time consuming and difficult but I do know people who suffer from many of the... same shortcomings I have, going so far to work through it that they had an actual notebook that was titled "Human Interaction Cheat Sheet" with drawings of expressions and their meaning, a sarcasm checklist, even a list of common terms of phrase.
Do not even for a second think I blame all of you, sure I was angry but it was misplaced, I'm the one who should have fought harder, wanted it more.
Disclaimer: Not intended to be a guilt trip or passive aggressive response, not sure if it is or isn't but it shouldn't be.
Also maybe these posts deserve their own thread so as to not clog up the main one?