12-20-2016, 03:13 AM
(12-20-2016, 12:54 AM)Rahizel Wrote: Even if this place is "dead" which I don't think it is I'm still loyal to it... for what little that's worth.It's good to hear you've gotten back on track. And the only time a group dies is when no one visits anymore, not even to take a quick look, there's plenty of little glances here and there.
Odd how even now that I've made certain that attempting to be with large groups is both oddly alluring... but a major cause of psychosis in me as has been demonstrated... all, too, well.
Knowing is half the battle so theres solacs to be had in knowing where you stand, that being said though I usually struggle through the holidays, dearly...
Found myself an ace in the hole though, love. I found one who knows me better than I know myself, one I care for and trust so that their mere involvement can flush my head of all those bad, melodramatic actions a depressed mind yearns to enact, someone who can pass right through the defenses that I often dont see I've built but many a friend has crashed against.
Long story short is that while I may have not found normalcy... life has meaning and direction again and that makes me feel something I thought I never would ever again... okay.
That's me in a nutshell how is everyone else?
I'm in a similar spot. It's only a matter of time until I kick myself into gear and follow a non-destructive schedule I actually care to keep, until I discipline myself into one. I hope to over the coming break, Holidays have always been an odd source of energy for me. I'm gonna try to not waste this year's Winter spike.