Avali Nexus

getting some bad deja vu.

(09-21-2015, 02:09 PM)Surge Wrote: [ -> ]
getting some bad deja vu.

At least I'm fucking trying to do something useful this time around...

(09-21-2015, 02:03 PM)Marxon Wrote: [ -> ]I'm going to try and keep this short but it may run on a bit.

So, remember when I went to church? The good feelings from that lasted about, 5 hours. Today I feel absolutely miserable. I would try to do something useful and try to talk things out here but I've already got people complaining "Marx stop causing draaaama!" So I thought I'd do it in private.

Low and behold, most of the people caring enough and willing to help me out, don't want anything to do with me anymore  (Reks included) so I'm not sure where to go.

I've tried all the self help techniques, reminisce about happy thoughts, listen to uplifting music, even force a smile till it hurts, nothing works.

Since this is already getting long I'm going to leave with, first, I ment no ill will towards what I said to Reks, I greatly value them as a friend and a good source of support, I feel quite bad that I haven't given Reks more attention.

Second, this is the first and hopefully last post on this topic today, unless anyone wants to try and be supportive or help through steam or Skype, I'm open to it. I'll even take notes so I remember it this time. Until then though, I'll suffer in silence so none of you have to put up with me anymore than you already have.

Hope you all have a nice day.

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Also Reks do you remove everyone who doesn't talk to you on a regular basis? Just curious.

the latter post,
almost, but then again I dont usually talk to anyone so there's that

(09-21-2015, 02:10 PM)Marxon Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-21-2015, 02:09 PM)Surge Wrote: [ -> ]
getting some bad deja vu.

At least I'm fucking trying to do something useful this time around...

(09-21-2015, 02:03 PM)Marxon Wrote: [ -> ]Also Reks do you remove everyone who doesn't talk to you on a regular basis? Just curious.

No, because everyone on my friends list is someone I talk to as often as we get the chance, or have been friends with me for years and like to periodically keep in touch.

You have others who're better for you than I would be, Marx. Appreciate them over wanting me back.

(09-21-2015, 02:16 PM)Reks Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-21-2015, 02:03 PM)Marxon Wrote: [ -> ]Also Reks do you remove everyone who doesn't talk to you on a regular basis? Just curious.

No, because everyone on my friends list is someone I talk to as often as we get the chance, or have been friends with me for years and like to periodically keep in touch.

You have others who're better for you than I would be, Marx. Appreciate them over wanting me back.

We used to be the best of friends, I want that back...

Can we discuss this elsewhere? I can already feel the jeers coming.

(09-21-2015, 02:09 PM)Surge Wrote: [ -> ][image]
getting some bad deja vu.

That image pretty much sums up what I think whenever I'm on this forum.

Marxon stop gaslighting, god.

well that explained something,

Hi I'm ba-

(09-21-2015, 03:47 PM)Never Wrote: [ -> ]Marxon stop gaslighting, god.

I don't even know what you mean by gaslighting... And I don't give a shit what you think, you just stumbled on in here thinking you know everything.

You, don't, know, shit.


Anyways I was hoping to avoid this, but when someone thinks they can make assumptions from their high horse, I'm not going to put up with it.

How is everyone by the way?

(09-21-2015, 04:08 PM)Marxon Wrote: [ -> ]Hi I'm ba-

(09-21-2015, 03:47 PM)Never Wrote: [ -> ]Marxon stop gaslighting, god.

I don't even know what you mean by gaslighting... And I don't give a shit what you think, you just stumbled on in here thinking you know everything.

You, don't, know, shit.


Anyways I was hoping to avoid this, but when someone thinks they can make assumptions from their high horse, I'm not going to put up with it.

How is everyone by the way?

Regretting this dictionary.

(09-21-2015, 04:13 PM)Surge Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-21-2015, 04:08 PM)Marxon Wrote: [ -> ]Hi I'm ba-
I don't even know what you mean by gaslighting... And I don't give a shit what you think, you just stumbled on in here thinking you know everything.

You, don't, know, shit.


Anyways I was hoping to avoid this, but when someone thinks they can make assumptions from their high horse, I'm not going to put up with it.

How is everyone by the way?

Regretting this dictionary.

Excuse me?

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So we got a coworker here, bit mentally off, freaks out that a door is closed on him, threatens us, then tells a lie that the person who closed the door threatened him instead, calls his mother and spreads said lie, who calls the store demanding an arrest. The guy who did nothing wrong but close an overhead door for 5 seconds gets TWO strikes because they side with the kid because he's "special". On top of that I'm a neutral witness to this and my statement wasn't taken seriously.

I'm not a violent person and I don't discriminate against mental defects in people, I got some of my own.

But take shit too far and I'll grab you by the scalp and bash your stupid face into some concrete.


Sorry, needed to get that off my chest, not actually going to hurt anyone...

Sooo I've heard skype is not working on tumblr and now sure is that really happening to you guys

(09-21-2015, 05:37 PM)SCN-3_NULL Wrote: [ -> ]Sooo I've heard skype is not working on tumblr and now sure is that really happening to you guys

It 'works' but appears broken, at least to me

I can still talk to people and that's fine.

(09-21-2015, 05:39 PM)Reks Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-21-2015, 05:37 PM)SCN-3_NULL Wrote: [ -> ]Sooo I've heard skype is not working on tumblr and now sure is that really happening to you guys

It 'works' but appears broken, at least to me

I can still talk to people and that's fine.

Yep, exactly what I've read, everyone appears offline but can chat cant call, also recommend not to logout if so you cant log back in

Well, that's that...

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I give up, friends have never really done anything lasting for me, and I literally cannot afford professional help when it starts at 100 dollars a session.

I don't know what to do, and I'm too deaf and blind to know help when I see it.

Sometimes theres no substitute for just toughing it out on your own.
That is all.







(I unsubscribed from all threads here, if you need to reach me, use Steam or Skype

Also I'm taking the server elsewhere, password will be changed)

Everyone who cares about the RP Reboot, I want to attempt at least a minor overhaul of the Avali, but all I'm getting is Marx's hollow uncaring. 


I'll also do Kineptics but who cares about them amirite

(09-21-2015, 07:22 PM)SilverOtter Wrote: [ -> ]Everyone who cares about the RP Reboot, I want to attempt at least a minor overhaul of the Avali, but all I'm getting is Marx's hollow uncaring. 


I'll also do Kineptics but who cares about them amirite

Oh yeah they're a thing.

(09-21-2015, 07:22 PM)SilverOtter Wrote: [ -> ]Everyone who cares about the RP Reboot, I want to attempt at least a minor overhaul of the Avali, but all I'm getting is Marx's hollow uncaring. 


I'll also do Kineptics but who cares about them amirite

I do \o wo/

(09-21-2015, 07:22 PM)SilverOtter Wrote: [ -> ]Everyone who cares about the RP Reboot, I want to attempt at least a minor overhaul of the Avali, but all I'm getting is Marx's hollow uncaring. 


I'll also do Kineptics but who cares about them amirite

I already threw up what i thought of this on the RP thread that was made but i am willing to listen and see what everyone thinks up... i like to comprimise a bit.